work till 11am..
receive a bad news..
gong in danger..
thnk god, my uncle happened to be at wsd..
drive me and sisters down..

reach there,
mom alrdy there..
crying..
telling us, he suddenly stroke and heart attack..
doesnt respond to us alrdy..
sisters started crying..
even i started crying..
live together under the same roof le..
how can no feeling at all..

the doctor say tt
he suffer from stroke,
heart attack.
wat they can do is to let him survive on
oxygen, antibody..
he is so old le..
81..
wat for..
ask him got cure anot? he tell us rubbish..
then i ask him the ending is still the same rite?
its a matter of time rite?
he simply ans YES.
any old people would like to die at home..
we arrange him out lor..
waited for the ambulance for 3 hours!

now at home..
every1 waiting..
even ahma hated him so much,
i managed to drag her in to see him..
even my father golden mouth,
i managed to ask him to open..

gong is breathing out..
shivering..
waiting onli la..
waiting..
we keep asking him to go peacefully..
now got nth to worry about and etc le..
but he is still waiting...
look at his rib cage..
OMG.. i just canot imagine how BIG he is last time..

i just realise sth today..
u might be big..
u might be bad..
u might be arrogant..
u might be everything i dun like..
but when the day is near for u,
u are just a body laying down...
i just realise i shldnt let ppl affect me..
i shld be happy with my everything...

i feel so sorry to miss..
i keep scolding her..
keep scolding..
sorry.. i bad mood...

just saying i will be boring when miss off to bkk..
now,
i guess i will be damn busy le..
even i guess panadol i cant help le..
so paiseh..

*i want to hug miss and cry out loud!
sorryyyyyyyyyyy