*headache*

hands swollen again.. been drinking the past 3 nights?
alot of liquor, beer. nv sleep much...



I JUST WANT TO FAST FAST COMPLETE THE TEST!

drunk every single night. just to fall aslp without u appearing when i close my eyes. i not emo la! its the truth...

doing business is like i must go out entertain n know ppl. i dun like sia.. so fake.. but bo bian.. hope the remaining stocks will arrive, its afew times my monthly pay!
work hard pls pohkeong.

KOL sucks btw. halfway thru and its midnight alrdy.

每天告诉自己一切都会过去，
但夜夜想的还是你。

HDB sent letter informing cancellation. ok.
LL stare at it and go for a shower.
on laptop, check inbox,
Jewellery shop sent email to inform they have cancel my order.

DOUBLE blows!

the proposal ring has the "WOW" effect. something tt will definitely give u a shock.
but u nv got the chance to see it anymore. cost nearly 5 digits, custom made. i have secretly went to do it after jeffery's proposal la! deposit gone!
sad tt i am not the fortunate guy to give u the ring....

In my heart, i really hope tt u live well, no1 will bully u.
hope u can really find a man tt can take care of u better than i do.


i'm flying again soon. time will heal my pain n sadness but u live forever in my heart, sherlyn ler. u duno how much i miss hugging u, telling u tt i love u so muchy!

*this is a dead blog, i believe u would nv expect me to come back here writing so much rubbish. but sad to say, this is the only place tt i can talk to. i cant talk to my friend, my colleague, my family. No1.*

Worst time is when i'm sick.

used to have ur TLC, but found myself fighting this illness myself..
doctor say..... everything is good, losing weight, pressure going down..
but lose weight too fast makes the body weak..
walao... everything oso u say leh doctor!
i will be fine after this whole lorry of antibiotic..

CMFAS b4 i grad from murdoch,
Tag Heuer watch by year end,
shift sports/honda fit by 2013 end.

i will clear it 1 by 1..

U LIVE IN MY MEMORIES

a small getaway...

i will come back stronger..

i want to earn alot alot alot of $$$..

1st thing on my shopping list,
Rolex..



no matter how far or near i am,
the moment u left my view, i will be worried about you.
its something so natural within me...
promise me tt u will take good care..

even its a small op, i was damnnnnn worried bout u..
thnk god tt i am able to be by ur side...
how much i wanna tell u tt i'm so scared n worried.
but i can jus act like friend, and jus like friend...

hope u get well soon...


i'm down with some weird swollen finger again..
n i'm leaving for hk in 3 days time...
doctor was telling me how pain it is.....
i feel like telling the doctor, how to feel if u dun have heart anymore...

sickness, wound and cut will heal,
but what about this heart of mine?

From couple back to friend.
how much my heart ache...
how much i want to tell u that i love u so much..

when u told me ure sick,
i just wanna rush down just to take a look at u...

i cant.
its not the same anymore.. i hold my emotion.
i miss u the most...

no matter what happened,
ure the 1 i love most... n ure oso the 1 who hurt me the most...


Take good care ya..
my heart is painful, but i have to just slowly, gradually, let u go.....

i'm back after nearly 3 yrs of absent from this space.
i believe no1 will be reading this anymore le.
but nonetheless, let here be a place for me to talk all my feelings.....

i tot u will be my wife, the only 1 i want to take care of forever,
u choose to leave...
i cried for 1 whole day. i din talk to anyone. i ask myself why...
i duno...
my heart ache soooo much, this will forever be the worst pain ever.
i let u go... i din not wan to question myself or u.
i know it takes 1 reason to be together and 1000 to break up.
From my painful heart, i hope u will be happy always..
any point of time, pls rmb theres me that always wanted to want to care n love u.

I tot life will be good, if i strive hard, work hard and etc, i'm wrong.
reality sucks. $$$ is still the most impt factor.
i swear, i will not be rich, i will be flirty rich.

Good bye, good night pk.

i want:
faster finish NS,
faster find a job,
faster go study,
faster have $$$,
faster make YOU! my life partner...

this china man make me so mad tt i must blog..
sure noe how jia lat liao rite?

after a wonder day with my girl..
home n my mom ask me go buy some grocery at loyang pt for her.
bought, n need to cycle to central buy food.
as pic shown above..
i was cycling STRAIGHT.. n the aunty park there becz red light..
this china man just cut into an impossible hole n surely, i will knock into him.
n i oso din press brake..
BECZ i am going STRAIGHT..
those who got go take class 3 sure know rite?
RIGHT OF WAY...
he started to blah blah blah scold.
i ignore.. listen to my 933
i cycle he follow...
i cycle until police station then i come down of my bike..
me: "你要跟我回家吗?"
china: "我要跟你说道理啊！"
a very hot me: 说你的机白！是你的错还要跟我说道理?"

n we blah blah blah..
2 aunties heard wat we said n start pointing fingers n say the china man..
cb!!!!
the china man say if i got study then wasted liao blah blah..
lastly i really buay tahan liao..
你炒几百！头脑装大便才来这里做猪！
board my bike i n continue to paddle away..
fucking wasted my 5 mins of life talkin to a brainless creature..

i swear given younger days without 11b, i would have give him a punch liao..
sway.. maybe is today haven pray.. haizzz!!!
FUCK the damn man!!!!!!!!!

You look into my eyes
I go out of my mind
I can't see anything
Cos this love's got me blind
I can't help myself
I can't break the spell
I can't even try

I'm in over my head
You got under skin
I got no strength at all
In the state that I'm in

And my knees are weak
And my mouth can't speak
Fell too far this time

Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)

ooh
Well you whispered to me
And I shiver inside
You undo me and move me
In ways undefined
And you're all I see
And you're all I need
Help me baby (help me baby)
Help me baby (help me now)

Cos I'm slipping away
Like the sand to the tide
Falling into your arms
Falling into your eyes
If you get too near
I might disappear
I might lose my mind

Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)

I'm going in crazy in love for you baby
(I can't eat and I can't sleep)
I'm going down like a stone in the sea
Yeah, no one can mess with me
(No one can mess with me)

Oooh, my baby
Oooh, baby, baby

Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you

I'm lost in you
I'm lost in you
I'm lost in everything about you
So deep (so deep), I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)

Finally a change of rank..
i'm finally a normal NSF after:
- going thru push ups n more push ups
- need to bk in on sunday which i cant send my gf hm
- stay in for 1 whole week
- plenty of shit
- lots of fun

seriously trainee life always the best sia..
no worries.. just relax n relax..

N i'm back to being a dvr..
ok...
from strict to relax..
the change too big..
new PC, quite a nice guy..
old environment..
finally more time with my gf..

oso, its time for soccer..
my sole pain for duno how long..
finally dunid route march liao..
it slowly cure.. n i cant feel the pain tt much le..

just let this 10 mths pass smoothly..
HUAT AR!

kind of feeling down this few days..
book in n feel so down..
i miss my field camp, i miss my girl..
the feeling just sucks

book out happily..
become so helpless suddenly..
everything go wrong..
everything my fault..
i try to explain but everything still wrong..
got no road to walk,
i cant breathe at all..
really so helpess..
i cant slp, i so emo,
i punch some1, i got no mood for anything.

i am great that i clear the air.
i nv like all these..
all i want is a simple n normal life..
wat i want is always so easy..
but shit always happen..

i'm very tired.. freak fUcking tired..
i want to slp..

knock out.

a new week. a new me n you.

hi everybody..
been home for the last 7 days..
not bad..
really had a good rest..
so let me share with u my days with H1N1.. LOL~~~
life is about:
1)Tamiflu (1 box $70, lucky got it for free)
2)Plain water. at least 2litres a day
3)Bed, after pills is all about slping..
4)Food (no wonder i got fat abit this week)
5)Handphone (rdy to receive calls from some lame ppl)

quite slack yaaaa...
ehhh.. but my girl so busy this week la..
she got alot of plan until no time for me sia..
sucker ler......

back to camp tml..
back to "life"... haizzzz...

每当提到Tekong 的时候，就会有一种淡淡的忧伤。 这是 种从心理涌出的感觉。
怕的事不多， 但都是很够力。
1） 出来后， 去哪里？
2） 里面会是什么样子？
3） 盈慧会照顾 自己吗？
4） 我想家！！！！！！！
不过， 三个月后我 又是一条好汉。希望我能平平安安， 顺顺利利的把这三个月给熬过去。
各位好朋友， 祝我好运！！！

why cant everything be as simple as playing soccer..
pass, shoot, goal!!!

sleepy le..
brain cant think..
may life start again soon..
but wat is life?
anybody got the ans?

anyone got?
if u really got, i got onli 2 words for u..

"f uck you!"

喝完一杯还有一杯
再喝完这一杯还有三杯
ever since tt 2 bottles chivas until now,
can say is forget the taste of the sweetness in the cup..

feels great to be at selarang.
at least i see hope in my class 3..

and another $5 donated to sgpools for the 5 millions toto..
kaozzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

6th JUNE..
i going back to tekong.
kaozzzzzzzzzzzzz.....
after seeing so many crabs n bars,
now i need to salute 3 strips????
major change needed.

now i need to wait for my girl to be home..
and i will snore so loudly..
i very tired le..
today run from changi to queenstown.
from queenstown back to changi.
annd from changi to nee soon n return again..
SHAG*
good nite everybody..

HUAT AR!!!!!!!

撞到鬼！！！！

sway day...

1) went pasir ris interchange to help ahma change her ezlink.
went ard whitesands to find her..
cant be found..
after 30mins, she finally appear..
我忍！！！

2) went bengawan solo to redeem cake.
gave the girl the cardto redeem. she said the fruit card no more le.
then she proceed to telling me got pandan, duno wat n blar blar blar..
then i ok lor.. give me the pandan kaya cake..
Next, she tell me need to top up $10..
then i huh? y nid top up?
she say pandan is bigger size de..
KNNBCCB!!!!
kind of stupid.. then y in the first place nv say no more small cakes
before telling me other flavours?
fire up...
我又忍！！！

3) went KFC my sisters ask me to buy the meal home..
my turn n ask her to change the coleslaw to cheese fries..
"sorry ar.. cheese fries need to wait another 5 mins.."
kaozzz.. nvm la.. dunid change le..
我忍无可忍!!!

4) went loyang tua bei gong pray.
its my weekly routine.. after praying my sisters ask to buy fries n hor fun.
went to the western n ask the aunty fries 1 pkt how much?
$1. ok.. gimme 2 pkts..
collect the hor fun, went to collect the fries..
pay $2 n wanted to leave..
"小弟,四块"
waaaaa... at tt moment, thunders seem to strike my head...
晴天霹雳..
suck thumb take out $2 more from my wallet..
i admit defeat today..
sway to core...

may after today i can HUAT AR!!!!